Very overdue update
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I know…I am totally slacking. I am so sorry :(
Okay where to begin…So I had three treatments this last round of chemo. My last treatment was Aug 12th. It was not like a normal treatment, but really “normal” doesn’t really go with treatment. So I got really hot and nausa during this treatment, which I never got before. I tried to eat a few times and just couldn’t. I actually had to ask the nurse for another dose of meds, which I did not like. I felt pretty wiped out and sick after this one too…way more than usual. So on Wed the week after I called the doctor and had to go in. My platlets were way down…29,000…almost to transfusion level. I was ordered to relax and take time off of work. So I took the next day off and then a half day on Friday. I went in the next week for my treatment and it was decided that I won’t continue with treatment anymore…there was no definite answer to whether pushing me through the last 2 treatments would be beneficial or not. I got to take a whole month off and schedule scans.
On Sept 23rd, I went in to the oncologist to get the results of my scans and get word on what was next. Great news…the cancer is all gone and there is absolutely no sign of disease left. Without jumping up and down with joy and scarying the doctor, I sat there very calm and just listened as we went through the steps to come. I will not have to do PET scans again for awhile, which I could could not be happier about. I have to go in for CAT scan every three months and then go to see the doctor and get labs done as well. I love the fact that I don’t have to go in to the doctor on a regular basis anymore. Going in every three months is such a relief. I can go to my normal doctor now when I need to but I don’t have to go in to see my oncologist twice a month anymore. The relief is so nice.
So here I am…1 1/2 months into remission and enjoying having a life back. I had to stop myself from saying a “normal” life. Not because it I can’t have a “normal” life, but because I don’t think there is such a thing as “normal” anymore. I think just getting back to a life is good. The last year of my life has just been this “lost” year. For the life of me I can’t remember a moment of it where I was truely happy or had pure joy or where everything and everyone focused on this disease. Part of me is so overwhelmed by that and the other part wishes I could just forget about it. There is so much going on in my head right now that it is so overwhelming. I think that is why I have finally had to go and see someone. The one thing I wish had happened during the whole time was being told by someone to talk. I don’t want to pretend like that would matter, because I highly doubt I would have gone. I needed to work through this in a weird way…I wasn’t able to think about the whole thing until after it was all done. Weird isn’t it…it’s like I had to bax everything I felt up just so I had the strength to get through it. And now, everything is coming out at once, which a lot to cope with. I need some time but eventually I will get back to life.
In a nutshell, everything is going well. So there’s the update. I know it is way overdue, but everything has been crazy and I’m just getting use to all this. I’m cancer free, which is weird to say but I’m getting better at it as the time goes on. Eventually, maybe it won’t even matter. Maybe even eventually I won’t have to talk about it anymore…that would be even better. Here’s to wishing, right.
Post-Op Treatment #1
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Well, thank God that one is over…it really wasn’t all that bad I suppose. It was weird walking in there and getting treatment again…it has been 3 months since my last treatment. I was scared and nervous, it kinda felt like my first time again. I think that is mainly because I didn’t know what to expect of the lower dose. I knew how I would feel, but I didn’t know how I would react to this treatment. It was hard to have to walk in that chemo room again. The nurses were all nice and happy to see me, but I could do without. The treatment was shorter, I don’t know if that was the reduction in dosage or what…but any extra time away from the center is well welcomed here. I actually was pretty much myself throughout all of this treatment, which was a nice change. I was tired, but not as druged out. I went in for disconnect and fuilds on Friday and actually slept for a little over an hour, which is really hard to do in that chemo room…I really must have been tired. I came home and went right to the couch where I stayed for the rest of the day and Saturday too. Sunday was a good day actually…I woke up tired and with a headache, but as that went away I just wanted to get out. We went out to Fort Snelling State Park and hiked and then had lunch together. It was very nice…in life I think I forget how nice it is to just spend time with my husband and not worry about anything else (well other then running low on energy). He always seems to find the thing that makes everything better and feel normal, even if it only lasts for a small while. I truely love him for that…he is absolutely amazing.
One treatment down….4 to go!!!! Let’s hope that they all go this well. September 9th can not come soon enough :)
Updates
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Check the surgery page out for updates on how things are going and how I’m doing!!!!!!!!
